recharged.

hmm, yep. long time.. haha. anyway, today was indeed a Day of Screw-ups, Day of Revival as well as Day of Reconciliation. yeah, it was pretty bad as it started off. when to study wif wilson and then cheryl came to find me at subway. somehow, i was really frustrated and pissed lah when i saw her. like no interest anymore, just wanna pick a fight wif her. so yah, eventually i got my way, quarrelled and left wif a long face. maybe i was cooping too much within me for some time. was thinking to myself like "aiyah, forget it lah. i should just go MIA for 2 weeks lah. gif myself some time to think about stuff. yeah, so nontheless, i still went to work wif a long face and everything seems pretty fine. so i walked around the shop to pack the shop a lil and chanced upon dis book titled "Every Man's Marriage". so i thought, maybe i should just read dis. and so, i turned to the contents page and the first thing that i saw was "How Feelings Turn Cold?", i was like "woah, lidat also can ar?". so faithful, i read. and i got addicted to that book! was so occupied by it. and then SUDDENLY, cheryl came into life bookshop!! the least that i expected! she actually came to look for me wif initiative, furthermore it was after a quarrel. wanted to look up into the sky to see if pigs were really flying, but dammit. there was a ceiling. so, i was still in a shock, when she asked if i wanna eat dinner wif her. she'll eat in the shop wif me. so, we had long john. yah, and since she made the first move to "reconcile", so why do i still bear a grudge. furthermore, its a rare event. haha. yep. anyway, did some sweet stuff which i'm not gonna tell u all lah. haha. but yah, she was disappointed again when she left the shop. coz i planned having supper wif my friends [she's against late outings]. and she was disappointed lah. so i explained like, i organised it in the fit of anger. but to no avail lah, she didn't buy that. and ended the msg wif "aiyah, do whatever u want lah. i don't care already." and to me, it was like "shit! how can i screw dis up again!!" but nonetheless i continued to read my book. i really didn't know how to reply.

so yah, back to the book. the keypoint to dis entry is dis:
what's sin actually? in the book of Romans, Paul wrote that he wouldn't eat meat if it will cause his brother to stumble. meat isn't unclean! its not stated in the bible that meat's unclean. so why wouldn't he eat if its not a sin to eat meat? the reason he wrote was dis, it's not a sin to eat meat. but if u stumble a brother by eating meat, then it's a sin. so likewise, there is no wrong wif going out late!! but if it causes a stumbling block between dis r/s that God had planted, it is sin. this is the gist of it lah. not sure if i quote correctly, i'll justify it again once confirmed! yah, so what i'm trying to say here is that sin is so widely-ranged. though its not stated in the bible that its a SIN, but if it causes a brother to stumble, then its a sin. for me, i was convinced that its logical lah. so in our case [cheryl and i], i'll not go out late unless i haf a valid reason lah. if not, why should i strain dis r/s? no point right? i believe she's not that unreasonable that its a HARD & FUSS rule that i can't go out late. yep, so i shared wif her what i read. her eyes told me that she's thinking, "God, thank you sooo much for helping me speak to desmond." knowing that she has a problem wif sharing and expressing what she really feels, God speaks for her! its a testimony man! so i decided to share wif my fans out there! haha. yep, hopefully God's speaking thru me now. any disagreement, can just tag and shoot me lor! =)

*God speaks! He speaks!!*