whoops.

i was pissed today! not only pissed by filled with resentment and hatred. not kidding, can even picture myself killing. imagine that. but that's not the deserver-to-be-shot part, it is actually blame other pple for ur own insecurities. and even called pple and shouted at them. was bad, felt really guilty and ashamed of myself. maybe that was the limit that i've exceeded? and i well forgotten that other pple haf limits too.

anyways, was kinda rude and selfish throughout the whole confrontation today. it was totally uncalled for. to think i actually shared abt finding true happiness in the beattitudes, Blessed are the peacemakers.. i've already defied, big time! yeah, but to pple who noe me well enuff, dis entry won't be convincing enuff to tell them that i've actually cooled down and forgiven, because i did dis so many times before and seldom it really happened as nicely as i've put it. i deserve it, period.

* i'm sorry to u, and to him *