security.

as i spoke wif one of my friend,
it makes me wonder what are we working for.
what's pursuing goals and ideals
in dis rat race trap boils down to..

and i knew at that instance,
it boils down to security.
we work towards something,
to find security in it.

i mean, inter alia, security is one issue.
i'm not saying its the ONLY issue,
or even the fundamental or root issue.
but one of them, slightly bigger than the rest.

let's talk abt my 'goals' for example.
i've been working hard and dreaming hard,
to be an undergrad.
so that i can at least secure a degree at the end of it.

and when i secured a degree,
i can secure a high-paying job.
for personal glory and comfort.
and that's when i feel financially secured..

and only when i can secure a high flying job,
the status and the recognition i get will be awesome.
that's how i can find security in friendship,
that's how i make influential friends..

i earn enough,
to get a good set of wheels and clothings.
i can sit in a big office,
and when my family and friends come by, they can be proud.

dis is where my security lies,
and i'm guilty for it wasn't in God.
i find pleasure, i find security,
i find joy, i find comfort in material things..

that is what keeps pple working, don't it?
we can complain, but we're still at it.
most of the time, its not perseverance,
but pride and security.

ahh, the obscurity of security!

Lord, thank You for telling me what i've become.
Lord, thank You for revealing to me the ugly truth.