somemore?

ytd i had 2 dental appts.
wif a tinge of hope that i might be
relinquishing the dental chains,
i was left disappointed..

why i had 2 appts back to back was because,
i had to take out the wires of the braces
and do a lil filling for one of my tooth.
it appears to be too small..

and if i were to close the gap without the filling,
it'll be alot of closing to do,
my jaws won't match if that happens.
so i decided wif the filling.

i went there, and had a taste of freedom for a stint.
once the wires were cut,
allowing me to go to another dentist for filling
it was a weird feeling..

remembering how i hated the feeling of having braces,
i can't wait for them to come off!
but once it was off for a while,
i actually preferred it bounded.

it was loose and the whole row of teeth could move.
it feels like my teeth were gonna drop off!
while walking to the other room,
i was fiddling them wif my tongue.

thinking to myself,
"will i live wif these loose teeth for the rest of my life?"
and so after clarifying wif the dentist,
he cooly said, "oh, loose right? its normal."

many a times, we wanted to change our lives for the better,
coming up wif resolutions,
in a bid to rid ourselves of bad habits or sinful shackles.
but when we're finally free, we want the shackles back on.

sometimes, we hafta admit that we hold on
because we're just afraid of the 'new' beginning.
not wanting to go through another transition.
who likes changes anyway?

in one of the ep in heroes,
there was a scene filled wif literature.
"peter, why can't you forgive me?"
"coz when i forgive you, i'll lose nathan (peter's bro)."

is it really that hard to stop sinning?
or at least stop committing conscious sins.
which one deserves more beating?
an ignorant offender, or a blatant offender?

its weird, the kinda things humans want.
sometimes we say we don't understand God..
it is true, He's too big for us to fathom.
but why don't we try understanding ourselves first.