reunions/cny

for most, they hate it.
for some, they love it.
for few, they don't have it.
for me, i don't understand it.

i guess the only time when i really enjoyed cny,
was when i was a kid.
chilling wif all my cousins and siblings,
running around and doing nonsense.

but when i hit sec 1,
i realise i don't really like cny gatherings.
i don't even like getting the ang baos!
its a lil too awkward for me man..

sometimes, when i really wanna go visit a friend
after a long long time.
and since cny has the longest holiday,
thought it'll be a good time to pop over.

somehow, the awkwardness of getting ang baos
really impedes me from visiting!
maybe i think too much, again,
but i guess i don't like it when pple think i go for ang baos?

and eversince my grandfolks passed on,
the number of relatives going to the 'headquarters' seems to deplete.
today, it was just my family and dickson's family wif another aunty.
the rest? didn't go, overseas, on bad terms..

was just telling my parents,
in about 10 yrs more,
reunions can happen either online
or just wif 2 families..

no longer having 6 siblings and above,
our family gatherings are bound to shrink in further years.
and by then, what cny atmosphere will we talk abt?
it is rather sad.

come to think of it,
i really kinda miss my grandma.
though i seldom talk abt her,
but her voice and look still remains deeply etched in my heart.

"eh? ah siang, ah li sen ga ah wei leh? hia buey lai ar?"