DESpair.

while i was reading the news today,
i came across this piece.
http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking%2BNews/Singapore/Story/STIStory_323450.html

i put myself in sallehan's shoe for a moment,
and i could understand what that felt like.
the first person he looked out for,
was his wife..

can you imagine,
being locked up for 2 days.
mind's in a whirl
and your heart's flustered for what's to come.

all you HOPED for,
was to see someone whom you love deeply.
but the greatest despair,
for sallehan in that first minute in court.

was to find out that his wife,
his source of support and love
is actually absent.
how that pain might have felt like..

i believe at that point in time,
he'd not think much of the sentence.
he'd think more abt his wife,
why hadn't she turned up.

i think sometimes,
in times of need like that.
even though the other party cannot do anything
to mitigate or alleviate the sentence.

all sallehan needed was just to 'look' at his wife,
to know that she's there with him.
but he found nothing but strangers
and fear and pain that gripped his heart.

sometimes, just being there.
or just being contactable is all that's needed.
but those times,
are when loneliness creep in and grip you.