wisdom v romance.

romance says, "i want it now."
wisdom says, "God, in Your own time."

many times i find myself being "romantic"
or in other words, impatient.
not being able to trust God
if he can really provide for me.

Father, help me to 'bury' my desires
in Your promised land.
knowing that one day when we finally excavate that spot,
it'll be all worth it.

Lord, as much as i want it.
i want to honour You in all i do and have.
Lord, as much as it hurts.
i want to cast my desires into Your hands.

in Your time,
let the seed grow.
in Your ground,
it shall be rooted.

in Jesus' name,
Amen.

cramped teeth!

aight, i finally embarked on my
BRACES TORMENT!
its the first appt officially today.
had the seperators on..

its 8 rubber bands altogether for 4 teeth,
to seperate/make space to put the brackets
next tues!
and its pushing all my other teeth away
from that 4 chosen ones!

DAMN PAIN LAH!
normal pain can grit ur teeth and endure.
but oral pain cannot grit my teeth!
and its the pain that's constant that kind.
i feel as if i've got 50 teeth in my mouth!

just slowly but surely absorbs all ur energy
and concentration that some time soon,
ur temper will rage coz of frustration!

argh, i'm beginning to feel it alr.
PORRIDGE, here i come!!

psuedo nannies!

okay, i've been roped in to babysit these 2 good-looking monkeys.
they're peipei's twins,
turning 3 dis august!
noah trajaveor yimsung wen xing.
and
jonah roujaveor yimsung wen jie.
(i think?)

noah's on the left,
jonah on the right.

that's jonah,
the skinnier, cheekier one!

jonah, aunty pauline, noah.

noah, the fatter and more dramatic one!

in case u lost track,
dis is noah. the FATTER one!
hahaah.

noah, cute guy, jonah.

dis one i can't tell.
hahahha!

aunty pauline, noah, jonah.
finally subdued after a long long day!!

them in action!

ANZAC day!

a lil intro on ANZAC day here..
its a day where new zealanders and australians
in s'pore,
gather at kranji war memorial.
to commemorate the death of the 27,000 brave soldiers
who fought and gave their lives for the s'pore soil!
here are some pics of the armed forces..

at 6.30am!

australian soldiers.

australian military police.

australian police?

new zealand navy crew.
(i'm beginning to think popeye originated from new zealand!)

new zealand's officer.

new zealand veteran.

happy bapday!

how sweet of mark!
his present for me..

hmm.

i'm a part time lover,
and ur full time friend..
the monkey on ur back,
is the latest trend.
i don't see what anyone see,
in anyone else.
but you..

woah.

Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head - Sungha Jung

Kenny Rogers, step aside.
(is he/she a boy/girl?)

april 22nd.

i pray that u'll make the effort to watch dis video.
really.

hahaha.

celebrating my baptism birthday at swensens airport!
hahhaa, kidding.
we just so happen to order something wif a candle..

aunty alise and aunty mary,
both asked me if we're brothers.
hahaha.
hmm, maybe i'm a combo of zing and jun!
shit, who are my parents??!

the one and only gab-zai.

don't mind the spasm face.

my wife, pauline and our daughter.
hmm, let's call her, "eunice"?
she looks like a eunice huh?
HAHAHHA!

disclaimer: she's NOT my wife or gf.
she's alr attached to some italian guy!
so guys in your 30s'.
dream on!!
hahaha.

oh! the eligible bachelor!
i'm a 22 yr old looking for a partner.
i promise to be home before 8pm everyday.
i can do the dishes and almost any household chores!
so if u want me,
call 1800-9022-5769!

pleeeeaasssee..

scaling.

aight, some of u might know.
that i went for 'scaling' today..
it's actually cleaning of the teeth and gums!

pauline said,
"scaling not pain wan! only 15mins."
and i went to the dentist,
it turned out to be a bloody affair..
i think i've been losing alot of blood lately.

dr. tang actually drilled INTO my gums!
he said there's tar in there.
like what?!
yah, last dental appt was 6 yrs ago!
hahahha.

and when i had to rinse my mouth,
i spat out a mouthful of blood & water.
damn sick man!
and when i use my tongue to feel what's inside,
its damn hole-ly..

and it was damn pain lah!
DAMN pain..
even now as i'm typing,
my gums are still sore.

and after 'excavating',
he actually found out that i need to do filling
for 5 teeth!
and each tooth cost $50!!

wah, gst rebate also not enough sia!
tsk.
and he say until like if i don't fill up,
my teeth will rot and dissolve lidat.

so i did 2 today,
the 2 which braces brackets had to be fitted on.
den he said,
"yeah, actually its a wise choice. if u really had to
split up into different sessions to complete the 5."

like isn't obvious?!
i ain't no rich kid man yo!
yeah, so i spent 160 on my quarter-done teeth.
spent 200 on my phone.
another 25.70 for my hp bills.
plus 14 for my haircut.
oh! and 60 bucks for 4 gay tops.

err,
i don't haf much left?
hahahah!
why credit suisse still haven't call me!!

time to cast my net wider,
gonna hit the career agencies next wk man!
better settle my job fast.
before i ord wif zero dollars!

hahahha,
oh and if u few readers haf any job opportunities,
pls let me know yah?
preferably in the finance sector.

looking at foreign banks,
as an investment/financial analyst..
thank u!!

shit, my gums really damn pain.

narcissism.

decided to 'venture' wif a cap!
wif my legendary purple tee..

hmm, somehow i think dis is quite..
gay?

ahh, better!

okay, if u think i'm retarded.
now u know what kinda friends i make.

helping dickson figure out a soundtrack
for his final year project.
its an animation..

love..

oh, that familiar L word again.
resurfacing again and again on lesmong's.
but i guess its what i'm really good at!
blabbering and wishing at i mean..

watched a romantic comedy wif a grp of close friends,
so close that we've nvr watched a movie together before!
and today was our first.
and it turned out to be,
thought provoking and virgin?
hahhaha!

anw, i'm not gonna spoil the show for u.
and i'm not gonna state the title.
just wanna share my thoughts on dis.
LOVE.

i guess love always starts off wif a feeling,
a positive one at least.
and what happens after,
is a decision or rather,
a commitment to the other person.

it can be to many pple,
like what Jesus had for us.
or it could be for the special one,
like what st. valentino had for her.

but it all stems from good intentions,
pure and sacrificial.
what is best for the them?
how can she be loved?

love is a huge word,
that can be understood from many perspective.
the world's view,
and the God's view.

the world tends to be selfish,
they assume how pple react to certain approaches,
based on trials and errors.
hoping that he/she'll be happy.

God sees from an eternal perspective.
what's the best for us,
when is the best time for us to haf it,
and He knows what's best for us.

i don't really know where/what i'm driving at actually,
but one thing i do know,
is that as much as we want things our way,
we don't really know what's best for us.

and as cliche as it might sound,
only God knows what's the best for us.
and He's putting us thru these "love problems"
in view of our perfect future..

i know i'm not the best person to say dis.
but if u're discouraged by ur 'love life',
not knowing what else u can do to make it better.
or if u feel lonely,
and nobody really cares.

be encouraged today!
coz Jesus still loves u.
rmb He sees the unseen,
He loves the unloved.

though its not really true that nobody loves u.
at least we know He does..
simply because you're made perfect in His sight.
why would He make u perfect,
if He doesn't think much of u?

i'm holding on to my chains,
i'm holding on to my pains.
nobody knows what i'm feeling,
not even myself.

but Lord, u know me best.
thru the strongest winds,
i staggered.
thru the darkest night,
i bashed.

only to no avail,
coz i've found no rest..
Father, restore me to my feet.
Father, restore me to my feet in Jesus' name!

teach me when to stop,
and when to walk.
coz i no longer know where i am.
and You're my only Compass,
my only source of direction.

aimless thoughts.

been thinking alot recently.
abt my next step in career,
next step in ministry,
and also in my love life.

well, i guess it all goes back to God.
which sometimes seem so discouraging.
but somewhere in me,
i see the hope.
i feel that something good will happen eventually.

ahh.
melancholic, but real.

You were there.

be patient for the intro.
the pictures are boring,
and the musical intro's really long.
but watch it till the end,
u won't regret..

thank You.
for being there..

schoolife.

ytd morning, i sent my cousin to sch.
and sent my bro to remedial classes!
woah, the sucky feeling that i had in p1 -3
haunted me again!

as i see my bro packing his bag,
eating in the canteen,
lugging his oversized bag to the class.
oh man, i felt homesick once again!
weird huh?
hahahha, oh well.
its over for me alr!






i think he should seriously change specs.
HAHAHA!

too much to say.

i realised that i've been into vids and pics lately huh.
and its really amazing how
songs can express ur innermost.
words sometimes cannot express as well
as words and melody together!

oh well, i really love songs man.
songs are damn cool..
shit, i think i'm becoming more shallow.
hahaha!

ah, whatever.
hahahah!

overdue.

yeah, dis is where andrew's admitted..
don't mind the lady in the reflection.
hahaha.

and.. dis is how it looks like from the outside.


that's caleb in black,
andrew in blue pyjamas!
okay, dis is random.
ahh, dis faggot!
he's one of my men.
he's also the one who pronounces 'spaghetti' as
'spag-a-daddy'
HAHAHHA!
don't u think he looks like a rat?