oei.

its a bit late now.
but to u, its impt!

before it all happened,
we hardly had heart to heart talks
like we use to haf at ur place.

i always pushed it to another day
thinking i'm not ready
or i haf tml to tell u.

that night when ur mum called
i was still okay,
but when gareth called..
i was lost.

on the way down to ur place,
in the cab i was thinking
why u.

when i saw u,
i was kinda expected it.

on tuesday night, 26th june, 2230hrs.
ur head covered 2/3 of the pillow,
10% chance of survival.
even if u do survive,
ability to speak is nil.

when i heard dis,
when i saw u lying in there.
oh boy, i don't know what to pray or say.
neither do i know how to cry.

u were so close to me
i was so close to telling u,
that u're playing drums when i'm leading the next time.

today, 22nd july, sunday.
i led worship,
with u lying in the hospital.

mixed feelings,
but i had to be strong and tell myself,
come what may.

because there's nothing i can do!
but to be there for ur loved ones
who needs more attention than i do.

but andrew,
want to let u know.
that the day i get married,
if u're still breathing..

you'll be my best man.

i told u when u were playing winning.
i reminded u at the hospital bed.
and now i'm writing it here,
as a proof.
that its gonna happen.

i haf so much to tell u,
so much to share wif u.
i miss u, andrew.
i love u.