relativity.

ytd, inter alia, we watched a video sermon
titled 'indescribable', at kent's.
we were rushing and i was clearly preoccupied..
but its amazing how my mind retained the info and recap!

after our 'pilgrimage' to the sports hall,
as we were walking to central for dinner.
flashbacks of the sermon just flooded my mind..
and its amazing, how completely it pieced together!

the sermon wasn't typically abt love,
though the whole 'speech' encompasses God's love for us.
but the thought that i held tight to my heart,
was 'how small was i really am.'

now, don't misunderstand that i'm thinking negative again!
i'm not talking abt how useless i am or how pathetic i am,
but how small mankind, earth is in the vast galazy God made..
that gave me an awful lot of comfort.

many a times, we tend to heap responsibilities on ourselves.
when we screw up, our 'world' seem to crumble,
when we are disappointed, we think God doesn't care.
but is it really?

one of the part where the preacher said dis,
looking at planet earth from 'outside',
we can barely see africa and the sahara desert.
can we see poverty? can we see pain? can we see skyscrapers?

in the vast universe, the earth suspends in nowhere.
who are we? if we're so small,
why did God even pay attention to our small petty screams?
why did God feel so much hurt when these underlings disobey Him?

that proved a point to me.
from then, i'm done proving myself to others.
all these 'achievements' or 'accolades' or 'appointments',
are nothing, but simply titles to help us stay motivated.

what really mattered so much,
that God created us, though small yet impt?
is our r/s wif Him.
coz wif that r/s, we're able to spend the rest of our time wif Him.

dis small lil blue capsule in the outer space,
is just a holding area, or training facility for us.
to prepare us for something that is more real,
something that is of more value and truth..

dis morning i woke up,
feeling rather dejected and disappointed.
but i kept dis thought in my head,
that all these pains and hurts are temporal.

for what is to come will come,
and it will come really soon.
i just hafta hang on tight to Him,
and i'll be fine.

knowing how small i really am,
and knowing that,
despite my size, God still loves me.
that comforts me so much so much..

so what if i don't haf what i want?
so what if i don't do as well as others?
so what if i don't sing as well as others?
so what!

i know that God looks beyond all these,
and i am convinced for the first time,
that God looks beyond our earth.
He looks at our r/s wif Him..

coz our achievements can be measured.
our disappointments and joys can be measured.
but our r/s cannot be measured..
and that is what God intended it to be, immeasurable.

Dear God, i thank You for loving me.
i thank You for paying attention to me
despite me being so small in relative to all of Your creation.
Lord, i wanna live my life for You! i really want to!