prepared?

just a pretext,
the NSF who died in seletar camp last fri,
was dickson's close friend.
it was his batch mate..

it was the first time i seen him so sad.
i couldn't think of any other words,
but the simple old school, sad..
i kinda feel for him.

dis morning, when i went over to take clothes,
he suddenly sat up on the sofa.
den i realised, he spent the night at the sofa
wif his handphone clutched in his palm.

des: is nicholas your friend?
dson: ya.
des: batch mate?
dson: ya.

des: you all v close ar?
dson: mmm.
des: when's the wake?
dson: tues.

des: so what happened man?
dson: don't know.
des: they nvr update you all meh?
dson: nvr.

that was it.
he spoke barely 10 words..
and of coz, i didn't probe further.
he went to bathe, i went back home too.

when i went over to take clothes again,
i heard him sobbing.
it was painful to hear him sob man.
he'd nvr cried in front of me before, ever since we left sec sch.

dis was understandable,
coz it was a sudden death.
but it just got me thinking,
will we ever be prepared for someone's passing?

my uncle who had final stage cancer,
was left dying in a terminal ward sometime back.
all of us were expecting him to pass away.
he shrivelled to a child's size by the time he left.

my aunty told us that she's prepared too.
she knew the end will come soon..
but when he died,
my aunty couldn't believe it was that soon.

when she thought she was all prepared,
when the time come,
we knew she just wouldn't be prepared enough.
and true enough, she wasn't.

michael jackson too was advised by his aides and friends.
eversince he was dating his first girlfriend in stardom,
they were telling him that he's gotta stop his lifestyle.
it'll just consume him till he dies!

and true enough, he died from it.
dying at the weight of 50.8kg,
wif an empty stomach filled wif only pills and water.
did his friends expect dis sooner or later?

i guess they knew it was inevitable,
but not dis soon.
still, legions of fans wept.
he was easily the world's most famous celebrity!

even my brother knew who was he.
but nobody could believe dis 'shocking' piece of news,
even though the world knew his eccentric lifestyle,
and his obsession for perfection.

so will we ever be prepared for death?
somehow, i think we'd be more prepared to die,
than to receive news of death.
isn't it?