desert.

dis song was introduced to me last week.
the words didn't quite speak to me,
until today.
when i sat still before the Lord in a long long time.

the lady in the video was a testimony
a testimony of disappointment, anger, pain, lost.
emotions that i've been struggling with
for the longest time..

and not many of you know,
that pple in leadership,
really struggles doubly hard upon leadership.
it is not the 'show' that was hard, it was the lifestyle.

so many times dis yr,
i wanted to give up.
so many times dis yr,
i felt so maligned, so disappointed, so hurt.

so many times dis yr,
i just wished i could step away from leadership.
so many times dis yr,
i just wished i could go Home.

but so many times dis yr,
i've seen God's Hand holding mine.
so many times dis yr,
i've seen God's footprints, not mine.

so many times dis yr,
He encouraged me in times i didn't believe.
so many times dis yr,
He showed me who He really is.

all of my life, in every season
You are still God,
i haf a reason to sing,
i haf a reason to worship.