imperfection.

among the many intriguing points,
i've sifted out a sub-point.
one that may not be as significant to others,
but it sure glowed in my eyes.

in his book 'socrates meets Jesus',
thomas kreeft, only the second author
who manages to narrate as closely as
what socrates might refute.

inter alia, he briefly spoke on 'imperfections'.
as he was discussing what sin might constitute..
and as he touched on imperfections,
he said something like dis.

socrates: take dis tiny tree for instance, is it evil?
bertha: it is scrawny and weak.
socrates: but is it evil?
bertha: no, it just needs more growing.

by the way,
the background of it was that socrates
was trying to prove if imperfection was evil.
obviously it wasn't, but it sure seem like it is.

anways, the point that i wanna bring out is dis,
that imperfection isn't evil.
therfore, it doesn't deserve judgement..
it only needs some growth!

why did i use sucha strong word, judgement?
coz evil will be judged.
first by men, then by God.
it WILL be judged.

so back to the point i intended.
many of us will say,
yeah, i nvr judge the imperfect ma!
they like very poor thing lor..

is it really true that we didn't judge them?
let me share wif you all something.
i've many flaws,
although i seemed ideal on the outside.

derek once shared wif the cell,
"i think des' life v perfect.
got loving family, can sing, can drive,
got acceptable looks, and quite well-to-do."

i pondered in amazement.
coz deep down i know what i'm not.
in fact, it just made me realise
how unreal i am on the outside..

and i've also came to concede,
that my friends don't last in my life.
or rather, they're not constant.
even though i make great efforts to maintain them!

and surprisingly,
it was because of my tenacity
that got pple cheesed off.
that got pple disgusted or even bored..

so i am imperfect.
i may haf the gift of the tongue,
but that was the exact reason for most
of my battered friendships..

so after all those 'self-pity' statements,
what i'm saying is that i'm imperfect.
and these imperfections cost me dearly,
coz pple in dis day and age won't allow me time to grow.

we tend to prefer the result,
than the process.
nobody wants to go through 'thick and thin' anymore.
they prefer to befriend the 'transformed' pple..

jessie once told me,
"it is easier to care for a beggar by giving money
than bringing him to your home to care for him."
how true!

i decided to rewatch 'a beautiful mind' last night.
i used to see remarkable success in overcoming.
but now i saw something different,
i saw john nash's wife's love for her husband.

it was one with great perseverance,
with no conditions or any returns.
she stuck by him in sickness and fatigue,
they both overcame.

john nash was imperfect,
in fact his flaws were so degenerative and severe.
but his wife,
she put her desires aside and cared for him..

two refreshing reminders i picked up lately,
perseverance and trust.
along with it, the most enduring attribute
is the undisputed, love.

true love transcends all understanding.
true love supercedes logics and emotions
that it seemingly defied.
true love comes from God, it is God.

may the Lord be with you,
may the Love be with you.