november12.

Those who seek the Lord lack no good thing.

Psalm 34:10

i've 2 doubts in mind.
may i share it wif you guys?
if you think you might be stumbled,
i suggest you stop reading from here?

those who seek the Lord..
i realised the Bible uses 'seek' alot.
so much so that i no longer know what seek truly mean.
does it still mean 'search' or 'approach'?

coz if it is search.
how else should i search for Him?
that He may be pleased,
and honours my effort.

and if it is approach,
i'm nothing but a thing on earth.
how do i even get the permission to see the King,
much less, approach Him.

somehow, i feel that i've lost hope.
i thought i was on the right track,
praying as i tread on.
not wanting to take any chances or advantages.

with respect, and honour.
dis day i fall,
with nothing but disappointments.
what else is there?

and my second doubt is dis.
what is a good thing to God?
good things are subjective,
aren't they?

i know that only when we look back,
do we know what was actually good for us.
and what are not.
in retrospect that is..

so while we're IN it,
how do we actually see the good in it?
especially when nothing seems to go right.
it is hard isn't it?

pauline sent us an email last night.
it records a brilliant conversation between him and his prof.
on the topic of God's existence..
and of coz einstein won on his 'by faith' campaign.

now, if faith is all i need.
den i can say faith is the thing i lack.
i very much lack..
so now it's my fault for lack of faith.

hmm,
it is really interesting how God speaks to you.
when you pen down your thoughts.
trying to put up an argument wif Him..

even though you know you will lose,
somehow you just wanna complain.
and at the end of the day,
there's really nothing much you can do.

but to submit to His will,
His authority,
His plans,
and His version of good things.