pokemon.

hmm, since she seldom read dis blog nowadays, i think i can say dis here. actually dis few days had been quite fine. handling wif stuff as friends etc. yah, but well, u know what i'm like. got things must say wan, what i feel MUST come out as words. haha, but damn shit. coz now we're friends and friends don't say "i miss u." right? yah! but i'm feeling tt and i wanna express it to her, but its gonna be so weird. grr, but nonetheless, learnt stuff from dis period of break-up lah. beginning to appreciate and notice the stuff she does for me and learning on how to control my temper and my freaking speech. yep, so far its cool man. but i always haf dis urge when we go to tt playground to just hug and embrace her in my arms. just really wanna tell her how much i miss her, but on the other hand, i don't think i'm ready for it yet. and i don't wanna put her in shit like i used to. hmm, desmond.. ren!! if u really love her, bring her happiness not sorrow!! don't get into a r/s coz u're lonely and u want her back. things don't work dis way, its too selfish. sort ur freaking thoughts out and then ask urself if u're ready again.

* don't gif up on me, i'll meet u when my chores are through. *