disappointed.

am i still fit to be her bf? her [no-respect] bf? is she still worth my trust? dis is not the 1st time it's happening. how am i gonna trust her again? what if she's drinking a group of guy friends? how can i be there 24hrs to watch over her? why doesn't she know her limits? i'm baffled. suddenly, i'm really very scared tt one day she misght get into trouble, and i'm afraid i can't be there for her. dis kinda things, need not be repeated too many times to know her lesson. just once, just hafta go over her limits ONCE, it's gone. if its not for danielle, anything happens to her. how am i gonna answer to her parents. by tt time, who's to blame? me [for not being there for her] or herself [not knowing her limits]. i talked to her, did she heed it? Lord, help me. Help me guide dis girl tt i dearly love. she sees everything so easily. thinking tt she can handle everything. when i saw her home just now. i know dis is a harsh word, but i was really disgusted. disgusted at how she looked, how she behaved. sometimes i really question myself, what does she see in me. she don't listen to my advises. she does her things her way, thinking tt she can handle everything. i'm really hurt. wanted to meet her online just now to pray and confess our sins, and start our r/s afresh. coz i felt really uncomfortable. but now, seems like she doesn't even care. still thinking tt she can handle everything. the 1st qn i asked danielle was "was she depressed or upset when she's sharing?" danielle said "no, everything seemed fine." but was she really fine? i don't know. i really don't know anything. now tt i feel so uncomfortable, i can't share wif anybody. i'm so upset, yet i hafta control my temper and understand why she drank so much. ANYBODY OUT THERE WHO UNDERSTANDS HOW I F**KING FEEL? DAMMIT!ARGH!