confessions.

too often,
we identify 'confession' wif asking for forgiveness.
more often than not,
we thought confession was repentance.

or rather,
we think that repentance follow after confession.
such a warped conundrum we'd been entangled in!
it is by no means a consequential effect!

when we confess,
it should rather, harbour the intention of humility.
it is not so much of asking for forgiveness,
but rather admitting our misdeeds or sins..

and repentance will be in effect while we confess.
as we stop and reflect everynight,
the Lord graciously reveals to us things that haf pleased Him
as well as the contrary..

and it is then,
we quieten down our hearts and confess.
admitting of our wrongdoings and be grateful
that God had forgiven us by evidence of the cross..

i just thought of dis analogy.
the famous tree that washington chopped off..
it is not that washington senior couldn't afford another tree,
or patient enough to wait for it to grow!

all he desires,
was for washington, his son,
to be bold and humble at the same time,
to confess and admit his wrongdoing!

the problem wif apologizing in contrast wif confessing,
is that the former usually tags wif a tinge of expectation.
when we say sorry,
we expect forgiveness.

if we're not forgiven and the person says,
"glad you wake up your idea"
it becomes another sin that we harbour in our hearts.
'it took me so much courage to apologize and you're telling me dis?'

pride sets in and that defeats
the whole purpose of apologizing isn't it?
whereas insofar, confession doesn't allow a response.
or at least, an expectation of a nice cuddly forgiveness..

we first, humble ourselves and identify
the crux of the misdeed, or commonly known as sin.
we understand and realise what and why it was committed,
and consequently, the grave price to pay.

then only, a 'sorry' will come right
out of humility and regret.
needless to say,
that's what a sincere apology would entail.