really.

its not that easy,
i'm not that sort of person.
i really am not playing.
in fact, i'm hurting.

is dis a facade i created for myself,
to get over my pains?
is dis a mask i'm wearing,
to heal my hurts?

it does look like i'm having a helluva time!
but i sure am having a hell of a bad time,
in me!
in the very sacred part of me.

it's really not easy,
to be against your heart.
when your brain says dis,
ur heart disagrees.

and they're in the same body!
for goodness sakes,
be more compromising would u pls..
ahh. the agonies of feelings.

i wish i could turn back time,
i wish i could go back to when i was 12.
there're so many things i wanna change,
so many things i wanna do..

but then again,
we're taught to look forward right?
sure its easier said than done.
think i'm gonna regret alot more next time.

can i make a decent decision?
can i make a choice which i won't regret?
will i ever be wise enough?
will i ever be happy enough?
just for once.

just for once..