guess what! i JUST reached home.. its 7.14am and i saw the sunrise in the taxi back home. woah, dis week was a tremendous week for me. i was given the honour to be the LSM (Leader Sergeant Major) of the company which only 8/167 pple would given a chance to lead the company as a whole!! so for the ambitious me, i was damn happy and honoured to be able to receive the rank from the previous outstanding fellow.
my show starts here..
for monday, it wasn't that much of things to do as in most of the activities are held in the company line, so its a lot more to handle and gather everybody to disseminate and organise the manpower. everything went well on monday and tuesday. wednesday was the start of our section training! all of us were being transported to tengah airbase, and having to co-ordinate the total strength and to accomodate the instructor's timings and last minute changes were freaking tough! but nonetheless i handled it well, coz my section instructor told me there were positive comments from other platoon commanders. den by the time we reach back company line, it was already 12am, everybody was shagged out and naturally movements were slow. i had a very very hard time trying to shout at them despite my own fatigue.
when everybody went upstairs to bathe and slp, i stayed downstairs to plan for the next day's activities, who to draw weapons first and how should they draw it so that it would efficient, and i had to fill up the LSM log book. so on average from wed to sat night, i'll only slp at 2am and wake up at 5am. last to slp, first to wake up. was damn demoralised by friday. i really had no more strength.
dis time, my instructor told me that i screwed up my last 2 days of appointment, nvr ensure nitty gritty details like "nvr inform the company to camo on before setting off for missions". maybe becasue i was shagged out and had bigger things planned in my head that i missed out on the small stuff. (my biggest flaw, which caused me something precious recently).
anyways, until yesterday at 2am, i handed my appointment over to the 7th guy who'd been appointed. i tell u, the smile on my face was that obvious that my platoon could see me smile even when i report the company's strength to the duty instructor. ahhaha!! i was that relieved. that was for my appointment part.
now i come to what i was appointed to do, small scale..
yesterday was my section LIVE firing, was quite fun but the shitty thing is that i was the SECTION COMMANDER. and in SISPEC, whenever u're the appointment holder, every other shit will just naturally go to u, coz u'rew supposed to be like 'up there'. then i was like what the hell man! 6 days wif a totla of 18 hrs of slp, how the hell u want me to shout through the bangs of the rounds and advance to lead ur section! damn. i was screwed. but nonetheless, i did it and everything went well.
dis week i only managed to touch my hp on monday and dis morning. i only had that much time. damn, i'm impressed by my own body that i nvr knew i could do all these. but wif constant prayers, somehow God pulled me through and i'm just waiting for my "Grandslam" next week in tekong and a 28km route march on the next next week and i should know my posting then. whether or not i can make my career plans come through is all there already. i've done what i could to work towards my ultimate goal. let God do the rest..
*i fell, i stood up.*
