Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Brother of Jesus, back in A.D 48

Not many of you should presume to be teachers, my brothers, because you know that we who teach will be judged more strictly. We all stumble in many ways. If anyone is never at fault in what he says, he is a perfect man, able to keep his whole body in check.

When we put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us, we can turn the whole animal. Or take ships for example. Although they're so large and driven by strong winds, they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go.

Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. With the tongue we praise our Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. My dear brothers, this should not be. Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring?

Many times, we as teens, tend to get abit or rather, VERY vulgar or impulsive when we're angry. sometimes we choose to be defiant and do stuff that we know it'll hurt pple around us, but for the sake of attention and acceptance.

Many times, we try to shout or else walk off when we're really pissed just for that louder say.

But only sometimes, we sit down quietly and patiently to listen to what the other party has to offer. Den we rationalize, just for the sake of peace.

Dudes, how many times haf WE, Christians to our friends held our tongue from tearing someone down and encouraged even though we don't get our own way.

Damn, i'm so guilty of all these. Being a hot-headed me, i always will wanna shout and haf a louder say, and when i get the other party's attention, i'll tear the person down to shreds. And at the end of it all, what's left? Hurts.

Don't ask me. Personally I don't even know where dis entry is going, or who are the audiences i'm targeting. I think all i know is that, i just needed to let things out. coz for me, i just cannot initiate to tell pple that "hey, i'm struggling here. pls hear me out?" i just can't. And when i post it on the blog just for a pure intention of letting things out, comments would come like "act sad again."

But then again, i would always praise God for giving me close friends, girl friend to hear me out when they sensed that something was wrong. And that my friends, i thank you.

Amazing isn't it? Just two lines, i can be happy and thankful again after the 6 short paragraphs of ranting. Oh, how awesome is our Lord. For He who blessed us with words of praises despite the curse of swearings. Our God, my Father will always be fair. Its ALWAYS up to us to choose a flip-side.

*to my faithful audiences*

Monday, December 05, 2005

thanksgiving.

To: Pastor Aaron
CC: God

i open my eyes, and i can't see a thing
i was blinded by a white light.
i don't know how and i don't know why
i was in that state

everybody was screaming,
i tried to make a sound
but nobody heard me
i tried to scream,
until nothing seemed to matter.

but thank God,
for my pastor, Aaron.
for he heard me
as though we were in a quiet room.

walked towards me and somehow
i snapped back into reality
"u know that i love u. it hurts, seeing u like that"
thoughts flashed past
my lost and hindered mind

in an instance,
everything seemed to make sense
a sermon to sum it all
Romans 8:1
from Paul to Aaron's tongue
rescued a soul out of a bottomless pit

thank you.