title.

quite a bit happened these 2 days.
made a couple of mental notes,
'i wanna blog abt dis.'
'i shall blog abt that.'

**WARNING**
long entry ahead.
bored readers, brace yourself!
picture readers, haf a nice day.

caught 'gran torino' last night..
it was an artistic film,
most pple wouldn't be able to appreciate it.
but i did..

the wry humour of an old man,
almost got nothing to lose wif his life anymore.
didn't know anything else
but anger, hatred, revenge and alcohol..

an old man seemingly waiting for his time to be up,
knew nothing abt life after death.
but ironically,
exemplifies what life means even breathing his last.

i'll not spoil the story here,
for those who're thinking of catching it.
if you're looking for gang fights and gore and graphics,
try 'shinjuku incident' instead of 'gran torino'.

that old man, walter.
asked the priest what he knows abt life and death..
challenging the priest if he knows anything else,
other than what's been taught in theological college.

that hit me a bit though..
always seem to know something,
yet i know deep down,
i know nothing.

in the movie,
it talks abt life and death and after death.
in my life,
love seems to be my forte.

but look at it dis way,
i blabber what i read elsewhere.
if i really knew what love is,
things would've been so different right now..

i don't know it all,
in fact, i'm the last person who can advise on love.
i'm learning,
and these, are just my experiences to share.

walter lived a life of bloodshed and hatred,
but he died, a man at peace he'd nvr felt before.
i talked too much abt love,
now, its time to practice what i preach.

wif that,
i assure changes.
and all these i say,
i say wif ache..

oh well.
anyways!
today, i saw a picture-perfect.
it was a beautiful sight..

a pair of jc couple,
walking into the rays of the glorious sunset.
the girl pushing her bicycle,
while the guy walked wif her at a polite distance..

somewhat i feel that was different,
different from what i see in our societies these days.
esp dudes his age,
wouldn't know what gentlemanliness is!

but i saw purity,
i saw respect.
and as i lip-read them,
they shared not just happenings at sch.

the stereotyped guy his age,
would usually carry his gf's bag.
pushing her bicycle on her behalf,
and the girl just rattle on abt her petty trangressions.

but in dis couple,
somehow i feel.
they will go a long way.
wif such admirable respect they haf for one another..

once, my friend told me
"i'm really quite amazed
at how much respect you give your friends"
but i guess that was in the past..

i'm into prison break these days!
gab failed to convince me to watch
hanamiki, or hanimaki, eh?
HANAKAMI!!

i really did try,
and my sister walked past my room saying,
"you got watch chinese shows one meh?
you surely cannot last more than one ep!"

hahhaha, err.
i watched for 10 mins!
really cannot la,
sorry gab..

then i went on to watch prison break.
yeah, i'm damn lag.
but better late than nvr right?
damn smart man, the show!

tmr prison break whole day!
crap, i realised i'm damn no life.
oh well,
at least my brain's still functioning?

what is a good company, and what is bad?
"time change, people change."
one of my friend reiterated dis quote to me over and over.
"pple change, but not much." by another common friend.

shinjuku incident really gave a brief but precise example.
wif ambition, pride, greed, revenge and power,
really changes so much.
so much that it may change our goals in life.

i don't know,
but i'm really getting a lil tired.
tired of friendship-liquidity,
tired of being sick and tired..

are there really nothing or no one constant?
am i just naive or stubborn?
or am i just a lil boy stranded on a bombay train platform,
wif the world spinning, and having no choice but to move along.

just dis entry alone,
there're changes in emotions.
changes in tone,
vacillating ideas and ideals..

did i just contradict myself?
i don't know.
all i know is dis,
there are tonnes on my mind now.

and each time i try to pick myself up,
each time i try to cheer up,
something pulls me like an anchor.
is dis how life is supposed to be?

but i really really thank God,
so much.
that there is dis 2000+ years old legacy,
that stood the test of time.

the Scripture that supercedes temporal f/s,
the Scripture that supercedes carnal love.
all i want is something constant in my life,
and i've found You, Jesus..

thank You Lord,
for loving me.
hide me now,
under Your wings..