start/end

3rd sept usually marks
the end of my 1987 friends' birthdays,
and the start of my 1986 friends'!
so cool huh?

but i'll dedicate dis post to my best friend,
andrew tham.
typing his name somehow still feels weird.
all the memories floods back like a dam broken!

soon, it'll be his 2nd birthday in bed.
what's worst, its not on his own bed..
but i continue to let God work His ways in Him.
for there MUST be a reason for dis survival.

i'll plan something for him dis yr.
those who're interested,
let me know.
and i'm sure he'll be encouraged to press on!

one of the things he used to say to me.
i fondly remembered and i've carried on..
is whenever i used to say, "wah sian.."
and there he'll be, saying.

"you sian what,
got money, got gf, got license, got car,
got education, got family.."
and he went on and on.

his prime reason?
just to see that smile on my face.
once his list of 'things' in my life runs out,
and my face is still glum. he'll say,

"eh, what happened?
don't so sian leh..
your face cramp ar?
anything just say lah! be a man!"

and i'll start laughing without fail.
when he says,
"your face cramp ar?"
HAHAHHA!

sometimes, i really wanna accompany him.
like how he accompanied me when i was down,
when i was lonely and feeling retarded.
he's there.

but there has been dis burden in me,
i do not know what to say to him.
so many things i wanna update him on,
but i'm afraid he might feel worst for not being to respond.

and i really really REALLY hate saying bye to him,
i really don't know how else to say it man!
and that's why i didn't dare to go alone.
i've always feared the worst.

he meant so much to me,
and he always will be.
if he's not gonna recover in dis lifetime,
i really sincerely pray that he'll keep the faith!

coz there're so many things i wanna ask him in heaven!
so many..
the last time i heard his voice,
was when he's coughing.

and the last time i heard him talk,
was 25 june 2007, eve of his accident.
when we had supper and jo wanted to take pic wif him.
and he said, "like as if i gonna die tmr lidat!"

GET WELL SOON, ANDREW.
if not, at the very least, KEEP THE FAITH!
i wanna see you in heaven!
if there's PS2 and tv, we'll play winning eleven!